Big Brother

Vinnie Jones to win!!

five year's ago my life fell apart,

I had no reason to live.

I thought everyone was out to get me

everyone knew my secret 

I tried so hard to forget what people were saying

I tried to block out the name's they used to call me.

Every time I closed my eye's I could see him,

I could still smell him,

but worst of all I could still taste the alcohol.

I wanted so much to forget about it that I tried ending my life.

I wanted to die so much just to forget the pain and hurt i kept feeling.

I never got close to anyone after that,

He told me I was damaged good's and that no one would want me ever.

He told me if i told anyone he would kill me,

I wished he did kill me so I didn't have to feel anymore

I wanted to be dead so no one else could hurt me.

I told myself  I would never let a man in to my life ever again.

I didn't want to be used and hurt again.

But you have made me feel so save

you have made me feel so loved and now I am glad he didn't kill me.

you wasn't in my life when it happened but I am happy you are here now.

You made me believe in life again, you made me see that my life isn't a black whole any more.

Regret's!

They made me do it again

I've slit my wrist

it seem's like the blood is always pouring out of me

they don't care

they don't understand

but you do.

I did it again,

I bleed and now  I'd stop you too

I don't care if I die as long as I've stopped you..

They keep bugging me

what do they care when I'm dead they'll be having a ball

all i can do i face the fact's

it drove me to suicide.

who's to say I won't do it again?

No body care's they don't give a fuck they want me to hurry up and die.

The threat's and punches flew at my head,

They don't understand me 

but you do.

I've gone through year's of blood sweat and tear's

I had no reason to stop

I picked up a gun, loaded it and tried to squeeze the trigger,

I stopped because I thought I'd lose you.

No Body Listens to Me.

I'm trying it again

the failure seem's the same

but I'll die in the end

no body think's of me again.

I was at a loss

I was alone with no where to go but now I'm frozen in time.

I'm never going to leave your side again.

now I'm forgotten,

no body know's my name

failure seem's the same.

One time,

All I want is you now

my death

why would anyone care?

one time,

I feel you close to me

I didn't mean for you to be caught up in this mess.

I know time is slipping away

everything feel's like yesterday

your tear's have rolled down your gorgeous face once again.

My sadness is love

why is fate so true?

But I'm lost in the moment

the time is heavy, it seem's so right

All i can see is fire,

but failure seem's the same.

My love is seem's so far away

and yesterday I loved you less because I love you more today.

Does it seem right I'll be forgotten next month?

everybody seem's to hate me

what's the point?

No body want's to remember me.

Thank You Daniel Day XxXxX

After all the years I have known you, you have always been there for me,

you pick me up when I am down, you make me smile when Im pissed off, you are my world and I don't know what I would do with out you.

All the things i have told you, you have never judged me or put me down, you know the right things to say and you know how to make me laugh.

You are my one and only best friend and i cant wait for more years of being your friend.

We have so many strange and funny memories which yes I will post, you don't think i would have a Blog and not post any of our history did you!!

We bitch together we get depressed together and we are random with each other.

You always help me out and I never know how to pay you back so this is my start of saying thank you for all you have done for me. and with out your help this Blog wouldn't of happened so i owe alot to you.

THANK YOU FOR THE PAST, THANK YOU FOR THE PRESENT AND THANK YOU FOR THE FUTURE!

I LOVE YOU! XXXXX

My Music.

for as long as i remember it has been expected of teenagers and young adults to like the type of "in" music such as Lady gaga, Beonyce, The Saturday's, Jay z, Pixie Lott and any one who wins the x factor-not me.

As much as i love lady gaga and her brilliant line up of great music i also enjoy other types of music.

Most people would be ashamed to admit what kind of music they have on their ipods but im not, 

Although I do have Lady gaga Beonyce, The Saturday's, Jay z, Pixie Lott and Alexandra burke on my ipod i also have other types of music like the good old music: Blondie Dolly Parton Willie Nelson old blues eyes, yes Mr Frank Sinatra and loads of other great classic, I also have music most people wont give a chance like Miley cyrus AKA Hannah Montana the Jonas Brother's High School Musical and mainly stuff for the under 10's but i love them, mainly Miley Cyrus.

Now to admit to my more cheesy song like's....

Aqua (barbie is my song) Steps, westlife, Boyzone, Spice girls  (im not ashamed to admit it, i loved them 10 years ago and i love them now!!) S Club 7 and  Britney spears. 

But since I've been with my darling boyfriend, him and his little sister have got me liking Muse Paramore (they are amazing) The killers The Calling Papa Roach, 30 Seconds To Mars and loads more.

I also enjoy the classical range like Kathrine Jenkins, Fayrl Smith, Lesley Garrett Il Divo and many more.

I don't get why people are so bothered about what music we listen to.

Be Proud of the music you like and don't hide it.

MUSIC EXPRESSES WHO YOU ARE!!

Xx~ MizUnderStood's First Post ~xX

I have no idea what to write as my first post!!


I would say im not good at talking but i cant as my best friend will read this and disagree completely, so i guess i will tell the truth.
i'm a complete bitch.
i say what i think and dont care what people say. i must warn you i will post some bollocks and random shit on here but not to worry, they are working on a cure for that as we speak.


I'm never serious, only with certain people. i love music films and DRINKING!! 
my friends and family mean everything to me, (little sister is in fact the daughter of the devil).
i write poetry and i will post some off them
basically im just a normal (partly) 20 year old.


if you dont like the sound of me then FUCK OFF INIT!!