five year's ago my life fell apart,

I had no reason to live.

I thought everyone was out to get me

everyone knew my secret 

I tried so hard to forget what people were saying

I tried to block out the name's they used to call me.

Every time I closed my eye's I could see him,

I could still smell him,

but worst of all I could still taste the alcohol.

I wanted so much to forget about it that I tried ending my life.

I wanted to die so much just to forget the pain and hurt i kept feeling.

I never got close to anyone after that,

He told me I was damaged good's and that no one would want me ever.

He told me if i told anyone he would kill me,

I wished he did kill me so I didn't have to feel anymore

I wanted to be dead so no one else could hurt me.

I told myself  I would never let a man in to my life ever again.

I didn't want to be used and hurt again.

But you have made me feel so save

you have made me feel so loved and now I am glad he didn't kill me.

you wasn't in my life when it happened but I am happy you are here now.

You made me believe in life again, you made me see that my life isn't a black whole any more.