To those who hated me ....

You made me a stronger person

Thanks to those who loved me ...

You made my heart bigger

Thanks to those who cared ...

You made me feel important

Thanks to those who worried ...

You let me know you actually cared

Thanks to those who left me ...

You showed me not everything lasts forever

Thanks to those who stayed ...

You show me the true meaning of friends

Thanks to those who entered my life ...

You made who I am today

Riddle

The colour people associate me with is red.
You might show me with a box of chocolate's.
I cab grow big
and i can grow small.
I can be pure
I can be true.
People show me with flower's and hug's and kisses.


I can make you feel wanted or all alone.
I can tear you apart or make you cry.
I am the complete opposite of hate.
What am i??

LOVE!

I'm all alone, with no one to help me and with no where to go, just me and my trusty razor blade!!

untouchable by shannon mclaughlan

Untouchable.

Sand slipping through pale fingers.
Birds soaring like a plane.
Sun baking like an oven.
Sea stretching.

Untouchable.

Fiery horizon rising high.
Paint a picture and feel free.
Find a key and find an answer.
Find one puzzle piece.
and never have peace again.
Treasure the soil in your hand.

Untouchable.

Dance and leap.
Sing and Glide.
Laughing and Smiling.
Leaves falling of a bare tree.
Unmasked becomes the world

Untouchable


As the past begins to fade.
Present times will change.
Evilness still at war.
Light will always shine brighter.
Forgiving is never easy.
But Forgetting is even harder.
Having a home.

Untouchable.

Leaving behind memories.
Leaving the past and present.
Letting go and saying farewell.
To a life that never lasted long.
But i moved on.

I'm Gonna Say This Now....

When you love someone your views on the world change, your believe's change, you realise you want the things in life you never thought you did, like children, a marriage, and a husband who is also your bestfriend.
You realise that after year's of having a cold closed heart, pushing people away and hateing the world and wanting to be alone because you think noone could love someone like you, with a past to be ashamed of, marks on your body to tell a diferent story everytime, to scared to tell that one person the thing's that make you wish you were dead.
You bottle everything up and pray to god that noone will ever find out.
You say to your self day in day out that you are happy walking the world alone, when the truth is, you hate it.
When your out with friend's you see how happy they are with their boyfriend's/girlfriend's and you start to think, "why can they be happy with someone and I can't", "why can they love being in a relationship and I cant, why are they not scared and I am"
 Then you realise it's because you have been hurt in the past that you wont give anyone else a chance.


You know that there is someone you like but it's a bit like high school because you dont know if he like's you, so you tell a friend and she give's you that little push you need to tell him.
But your still scared and you decied not to do it face to face, so there you are, your heart beat is getting faster and faster, palm's are sweaty you stare blankly and his name on the chat bar and freeze.
You can't tell him how you feel, you have never told anyone so why start now?
You write out what you want to say then delete it, you do this another ten time's and in the end you think fuck it, so on the count of five you hit enter.
You see that he is writing back and your scared of his reply, what do you do if he doesn't feel the same? you wont know until you see what he has to say.


You can relax!! He like's you too.
After a while you start to think, for once in my life, I am with someone who I care about and he actually care's about me too.
Then you remind your self that he will soon change his mind about you once he find's out all about your past and hear's the rumour's and you think to your self, " Do I like him that much to tell him my life story for him to judge me and run a mile?"
The answer: YES. Because not only do you like him but deep down you know you love him, and you know he genrally love's you too.


As the week's and month's go by you start slowly letting him in, telling him the thing's that only your bestfriend know's, and then one day you sit there and think, this man know's every seedy little thing about my past and he is still here with me, he hasn't run a mile, he hasn't judged me, he has kept it a secret and most of all he still love's me.


After month's of being so happy and in love you wake up next to him and realise that you have opened your heart to the first man ever. That's the moment when you come to realise that you no longer want to walk the world alone, you want to spend the rest of your life with him, you want to get married and have his children.
You cant imagine your life with out him and it hurt's to even think of a world where he is not there by your side when you need to talk, or someone to just be there with a cuddle and a shoulder to cry on.
You want to be with him until the end, and you can only hope that he feel's the same.


This is how I found the love of my life. I pushed men away because I didn't want to get hurt, I made a promise to my self that I would be fine on my own but in the end I got fed up of being alone. 
I wanted to be loved but most of all I wanted to love someone.


I guess what I'm trying to say is that if you love someone but to scared to tell them, dont be.
If I can do it so can you.


Take a chance, because everyone deserve's to be happy!!

Where The Cybermen Really Live.

  Daniel Day (My bestfriend and now also known as DODSY) came home from uni so I went to see him and to take his mum and sister Aimee to Victoria coach station and decided to play a couple of tourist's.


So there we was on the 44 bus taking random picture's of anything and everything, Pub's, club's those crazy big red buses and even the home of the QVC shopping channel.
We took crazy picture's of each other and our shoe's, yes I know we are strange people but trust me, we don't care..!!


Then Dodsy took a couple of picture's of Battersea Power Station and said...."That's where the Cybermen really work..!!" 
This coming from a 20 year old who is at uni.
I have not laughed so much in my life, so I called my mum to tell her how stupid my bestfriend was, and she told me it was true, so are the Cybermen real?? and do they live in Battersea Power Station??
Of course they don't, I know this You know this but sadly my mum and Dodsy don't!!!

HOW STUPID IS HE??

Promises

Promises are obviously there to be broken!

Rape Of Mind

Pain is the only thing she feel's.

Hurt has become a part of life.

Agony is what he put her through 

and she can't erase that from her mind.

His face remain's in her head

weather she want's it there or not.

His action's tore her apart

and left her with a broken heart.

she may never be able to forget

the hell he put her through

the pain he caused between her thigh's,

that night in that room.

She can't erase him from her mind

even though she know's she hate's him

she can't take away the fear that it will happen once again.

His heartbeat echoes in her head

his cold eye's they pierced her heart

she doesn't want to remember the night

that he tore her body apart.

Because even though it's over 

it's like it's still  happening inside.

That night of pain and crime 

has turned into a rape of mind. 

Perfection In My Eye's

All I ever wanted was to be part of your heart,

and for us to be together, to never be apart.

No one else in this world can ever compare,

your perfect and so is the love that we share.

We have so much more then I ever thought we would,

I love you more then I ever thought I could.

I promise to give you all I have to give,

I'll do anything for you as long as I live.

In your eye's I see our present, our future and our past,

By the way you look at me I know we will last.

I hope that one day you'll come to realize,

how perfect you are when seen through my eye's

If  I could have just one wish

I would wish to wake up everyday

to the sound of your breath on my neck,

The warmth of your lip's on my check

the touch of your fingers on my skin

and the feel of your heart beating with mine.

Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you.

Ben The Dog

This is my dog ben, my baby..!!

The Dog And The Duck

It was a hot summer's day in July last year and me and my boyfriend were sunbathing at the park and had been there all day with some friends, we had a nice day, laughing joking and playing  games, all day there was a duck (That we named Donald) hanging around where we was all sitting.

One by one our friend's left and it was just me and David and Donald.

Donald was quacking happily away as me and David was talking, then out of no where this evil dog chases Donald around the whole park (And it's a big park) 

Donald was trying his best to get away from the devil's dog but sadly the dog caught up with Donald and grabbed him in his mouth and carried on running with Donald in his mouth.

Yes Donald died and we have no idea where the dog took Donald!!

XX R.I.P DONALD XX

Little Devil And The Hole

So normally  my stories are of me falling ass over tit or falling down ditches but this little story is about my little sister Danii.

It was on another family holiday in Leysdown and we spent most of the time on the beach and while me and my dad was off finding dead crab's my mum and Danii decided to dig a random whole in the sand.

They spent hour's on it and had fun finding weird shaped shell's in the whole, I got bored of harrasing the dead crab's so I started harrasing Danii so she started chasing me and forgot all about her hole, She ran past it about five time's until the dear sweet child thought she had beaten me, she thought I was going to fall down the hole but did not happen.

I jumped over the hole and Danii ran straight into it. 

The look on her face was priceless.

I have a picture of the hole but not with her inside it....I will upload it soon.

Uncle Mick

Ok so normally my post's are about me falling over or dropping down ditches etc etc but this one is about my uncle Mick =)

So it was my Uncle Del's wedding about 5 or 6 year's ago and my Uncle Del lives in a little village so it was no surprise when the reception got a power cut, so instead of being bore's and sitting in the dark like my new aunt's side of the family, my family carried on drinking and dancing. Yes without music because my auntie carole (the best aunt alive) was wasted and started belting out the hockey cokey and the yellow submarine song, so we all joined in, drinking and singing random songs.
Then a miracle happened, after two hours we had lights and music.

My uncle Mick and Uncle David went back to Unlce Del's cottage for a reason Icant explain and only Unle David came back to the reception. Bright red, tear's in his eye's and trying hard not to laugh.
5 minutes later Uncle Mick came back in with his tie undone, mud everywhere, leaf's in his hair.
No one could hold a straight face and started asking what happened.
Uncle Mick was not amused and sat in the corner like a spoilt child so it was up to Uncle David tell us the story.
So apprantly Mick had a few to many and Uncle David went back to get his car so Uncle Mick tagged along and fell down a muddy ditch.
I know it doesnt sound as funny as when I did it but you had to see him and the look on his face to see how funny it was.

BLOBSTER!!

do you like mr blobby?? if yes then add him on fb, i want to see

 how many friends he can get: find him under: bert blobby or 

mrblobby33@hotmail.co.uk

ask your friends to add him aswell

Spongebob Get's A Date

Child Hood Scary Moment..!!

Mr Blobby is one scary mother fucker!!

look at the eye's and that smile!!
Blobby die!!!

This Is How Much I Mean To My Best Friend.

So back to the memories.
I was about 3 or 4 and was spending the day at Daniel's house and we was playing in the bedroom, and we was on the top bunk probably hiding from our mother's, and (My version is) Daniel pushed me off the top bunk and I ended up with a broken nose (This is just one of the three way's I have broken my nose)

But of course there is the truth of how I fell off!!
There was a bike or scooter on the bed and me being yes of course blonde I tried to ride it and fell off.
Deep down I like to believe that Uncle Steve (Daniel's Dad) put the bike or scooter on the bed knowing I would try and ride it.
I hear you ask why and the answer will be in another post :-)

Blowjob's.

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Random..!!

I LOVE DAVID CINI..!!

She May Look Like A Woman But She Is All Man..

Ella may look like a woman with her knee high boot's, thick eye lashes, skin tight jean's and other girly thing's, until she burp's!!

Her burp's are so manly and loud that the dead could hear her.

And this is the time for me to tell you about the time she burped and scared a man!!

Ella doesn't care where she is when she burp's she just let's them out, at home, in a cafe, the doctor's she has even burped in the library.

But the best time she did one was in public, she just finished her favourite Mc Donald's combo of Fries and Strawberry milkshake when she did the biggest loudest burp she had ever done and a man who was literally 10 minutes in front of us heard it and jumped round like someone fired a gun!!

Her burps will make any man proud..!!  

Another Holiday Another Fall

June 2007
Location: Leysdown Beach, Kent.


It was our first week of our annual family holiday and me and Ella was taking a walk one sunny afternoon on the beach, we started walking towards Warden Bay, chatting away about what to have for dinner and what to wear to the club that night when we realized how far we had walked but carried on anyway.
It was nice the two of us having some alone sister time when we came to a gate which was stuck so we had to find another way around it.
On one side was stinging nettles and on the other side was a nice clear "safe" bit, so Ella took on the nettles while I opted for the "safe" route, little did I know that it was a mistake.
Ella was talking away about what shoe's to wear, when yes you guessed it my foot got stuck in a little rabbit whole and down the ditch I went.
At the bottom of the ditch was a little stream and because i didn't want to make an ass of myself even more I grabbed on to a wooden post but got about five splinter's and grazed my knee's.
Ella had no idea what had happened and while I was half way down the ditch hanging on for dear life to the wooden post and five splinter's in my hand she was still walking along and talking to her self, and when I didn't answer her she looked round to see what I was doing but of course she couldn't see me.
I can still hear her  now shouting out my name asking me where I was.
I couldn't help but laugh and then I saw her head then saw she was crying with laughter at the sight of me me in the ditch.


After about ten minute's of Ella on the ground laughing at me she finally helped me out of my little situation and to steady my nerves we finally made it back to safe ground (Mr B's) for a game of bingo.


This is the reason why I drink, this is what happens to me when I'm sober..!!


Three year's on and Ella keep's telling this story like it happened yesterday... 

What Are Friend's For?

Just an update on friendship and how great it is....NOT!!!
Dan (The best friend of 19 year's) asked me to go on cam so he can show me he is eating ben and jerry's ice cream!!


FRIENDSHIP IS BOLLOCK'S THESE DAY'S!!

Football

Carlos 'Kukin' Flores  told police he was being chased by a ghost when he was stopped for running naked through the street's..!!!
Carlos has admitted to having issues with cocaine, eventually admitted that he had been "engaging with dirty ladies" and that he came up with the ghost line to try and hide the truth from his wife.


All I can say is..chased by ghost's?!? MATE YOUR STILL ON COCAINE..!! YOU IDIOT..!!

Never Race A 5 Year Old

Year: 2005
Month: Not to sure..!!

Me Ella Danii Carmen and Alithia was outside my school on our way to my parent's evening and we was going to the shop first.
Danii asked me to race her so I did, but the devil child decied to run in a zig-zag and I tought it would be safer to run in the road so I wouldnt get tripped up by Danii or the other way round, but as I ran into the road I tripped myself up and went skidding across the road and nearly got hit by a car.

It hurt so bad that I wanted to cry but when I saw everyone laughing I started to laugh.
My hip didnt!!
My hip got so badly bruised and cut that to this day the cold weather hurts my hip!!

NEVER RACE A 5 YEAR OLD!!

It Was Between Me And The Fence

June 2008:

I was on holiday with my family, (Mum, Dad and little sister Danii) we was on our family holiday where we go every year.

Leysdown, Kent, staying in our much loves Caravan Park.

Me Mum and Danii was off to the shop while my dad stayed beind, our Caravan was in front of the parking area with a fence around it, Mum and Danii took the long way round and Me being Me took the easy way and climbed over the fence but I was wearing Flip-Flop's (Not good for climbing with..!!)

My foot got stuck on something and i flipped right over landing smack on my face.

Mum and Danii laughing was bad enough until I heard my Dad's evil laugh from the Caravan.

What made matter's worse was the fact that the grass had just been cut and i had grass every where, I mean EVERYWHERE..!!

My hair, down my top, my leg's and yes even my teeth!!

The fence also decided that this wasn't enough and also broke my Flip-Flop's and cut all my leg and arm!!

When Joe-Joe "Ran Away"

I can't remember how long ago this happend but I think I was about 5 or 6.
When we all moved in to our house we became good friend's with our neighbour that we started to call them aunt and uncle, and we thought of there kid's as our cousin's.
Me and Ella (my older sister) was really close to their oldest son Joe-Joe, (Still are.) I dont remeber the whole story because like I said I was about 5 or 6 but Joe-Joe must of got in to trouble by unlce Joe because Joe-Joe knocked on our front door with his bag and said he was running away and can he stay with us. (All he packed was his beloved colouring book's and teddy bear's)

Mum and Dad couldn't stop laughing and still can't to this day. when ever they see him they mention this!!!

Memories!

Writing my last post about Carmen got me thinking about all the memories I have had with a lot of people so I thought why not post them.
There will be some funny one's, sad one's alot of embarrasing one's (for me anyway).
And probably memories people thought i forgot about lol!

Carmen Andrea Solorzano

my close friend of soo many years wants me to write a post about her!!
i got nothing to say apart from:
we had sooo many fucking memories too many to post now but man i will post most of them.
omg typing this i just remembered i saw a picture of "J" omg omg omg!!

ok im going to pen some memories then post them on here!!! hahaha.
EXPOSURE!!

Never Stop Loving You- A Heart Broken Poem BY Shannon Mclaughlan.

Clouds moving,

rain falling,

sun breaking,

Don't stop the rain.

Darkness spreading,

sadness multiplies,

i despise you more,

Happiness fading,

Soon im understanding,

the meaning of life.

hate expanding,

hearts disolving,

Thanks to you,

I feel like im dying.

My blood runs cold,

The heart of mine,

misunderstanding

Roses blooming,

still i sit still,

waiting for that day,

Till you realise,

I love you till my last breathe.

Breathing heavily,

sobs escaping,

Tears running,

Head buried,

In my hands.

Shoulders heaving,

My heart bleeding,

with the thought,

I'd never see you again.

Eyes closing,

time is stopping,

to a world which i hope

is better

Trying to Get A straight Man To Fuck A Gay Man

Annie Snowflake
omg i fucking love you glen


8:45pmGlen
why do u


8:45pmAnnie Snowflake
because you are god!!


8:46pmGlen
but u got a bf


8:46pmAnnie Snowflake
we can have a 3 sum


8:47pmGlen
hmmmm


8:48pmAnnie Snowflake
is that a yes?


8:48pmGlen
i dont know


8:49pmAnnie Snowflake
why dont you know it will be fun :)


8:52pmAnnie Snowflake
come on need a answer need to book a romm and what not :)


8:53pmGlen
why u want me 2 fuck u then


8:53pmAnnie Snowflake
no my bf gonna fuck you :)
then u can both fuck me


8:55pmGlen

i not leting no one 2 fuck me i only do girls NO BOY


8:56pmAnnie Snowflake
you never know you might enjoy it
afterwards you get to fuck me so why not say yes
no one is going to fnd out


8:57pmGlen
SORRY IT A NO


8:57pmAnnie Snowflake
ohhh well was going to say just fuck me and my bf can watch but you said no so might as well be no for every thing else


9:00pmGlen
ok then i do like u but i cant have ur bf fuckin me


9:00pmAnnie Snowflake
his very good
best ive had


9:01pmGlen
that nice 4 u then


9:01pmAnnie Snowflake
if u dont want him to fuck u why not fuck him


9:02pmGlen
wat


9:02pmAnnie Snowflake
you dont want to be fucked by a man so why not jus fuck a man


9:03pmGlen
no why do u want me 2 fuck him then

9:03pmAnnie Snowflake

because im getting wet just thinking about it


9:04pmGlen
if i said yh what wud he do and what u do


9:06pmAnnie Snowflake
he would take it i would sit back andf finger my self while im watching


9:07pmGlen
then what


9:07pmAnnie Snowflake
then one of u could fuck me
or both of you
spit roast


9:09pmGlen
if i said yh when and where


9:11pmAnnie Snowflake
how much are you willing to pay

9:11pmGlen
i not pay 4 it or 4 u


9:12pmAnnie Snowflake
ok then bye

I Love James + SuzANNE

12:38pmJames
hi u oki
12:38pmAnnie Snowflake
yea you
12:38pmJames
yh wuu2
12:38pmAnnie Snowflake
not much
you
12:40pmJames
nm tryna ring daniel
to mae sure he knows theres no presentation evening
12:41pmAnnie Snowflake
yh he knows hes here with me
how do u know
12:41pmJames
kl
saw on skl site
12:42pmAnnie Snowflake
ok kool
u wanna meet up about 2 ish?
out side tk 2 da maxxx
12:43pmJames
wt u plannin to do
12:43pmAnnie Snowflake
the usual, meet dave have sex throw a few snow balls at him
12:44pmJames
lol nh its kl am waitin for something to be delivered at home
12:44pmAnnie Snowflake
what??
12:45pmJames
dunno sumit my mum ordered
12:45pmAnnie Snowflake
a new son hhahaha]
12:45pmJames
maybe lol
12:45pmAnnie Snowflake
how dare u blow me off for sa fucking delivery man
12:45pmJames
lol
12:46pmAnnie Snowflake
i am not even joking
12:46pmJames
isnt 2 enough for u
12:46pmAnnie Snowflake
daniel wants to see you aswell we is not speaking to you now
12:47pmJames
lol y
12:47pmAnnie Snowflake
bbecause he loves you
12:47pmJames
lol i ment y aint u speakin 2 me!
12:47pmAnnie Snowflake
because ur npot meeting with us duurrrr
12:48pmJames
lol wt cn i do
12:48pmAnnie Snowflake
meet us
12:49pmJames
it is not possible lol
12:50pmAnnie Snowflake
anything is possible if you really want it
if you come i will let you touch my tits
12:50pmJames
not comin
12:50pmAnnie Snowflake
your gay bruv
daniel dont want you to go to his house now!!


your mean man
go home
12:51pmJames
what?
lol
12:51pmAnnie Snowflake
nsdjnkjweabjrweb
go home
12:53pmJames
i am at home
12:53pmAnnie Snowflake
dont lie i didnt know bins had internet, you realy pimped it out


12:54pmJames
lol yep i did
12:54pmAnnie Snowflake
so when u taking me on a date?
12:54pmJames
erm dont kno once i have got enough savings in he bin
12:55pmAnnie Snowflake
take me to the bin
i wantr to be ur bin queen
12:55pmJames
i already got a bin queen
12:57pmAnnie Snowflake
wtf who
dr who
saima
12:57pmJames
lol not mariah carey
12:57pmAnnie Snowflake
lmao
so who ?
12:58pmJames
her names suzanne
12:58pmAnnie Snowflake
take of the suz and u got anne
see i know u want me baby
12:58pmJames
loool
nh
ur taken got david n dan
he told me ur gonna have a threesome wedding
12:59pmAnnie Snowflake
who said?
12:59pmJames
dan
1:00pmAnnie Snowflake
ok kool u wanna be the photographer on the wedding night 
1:00pmJames
yh
1:00pmAnnie Snowflake
so whos suzANNE
1:01pmJames
u dnt kno her
1:01pmAnnie Snowflake
is she ur gf?
or do u want her to be?
1:01pmJames
yep to the first
1:02pmAnnie Snowflake
yh yh what evs
profile says single
1:02pmJames
ok
1:03pmAnnie Snowflake
ur dizzy bruv
1:03pmJames
so wht if profile siz single lol
facebook isnt life
1:03pmAnnie Snowflake
well put two and two together
it fucking isd life how dare you
1:03pmJames
lol
1:04pmAnnie Snowflake
dont lol me
1:04pmJames
lol lol lol lol lol
1:04pmAnnie Snowflake
fuck you cunt
so suzanne
1:04pmJames
lol
1:04pmAnnie Snowflake
wank shit
where did u meet
phone box?
1:05pmJames
holiday
1:05pmAnnie Snowflake
so she lives in goa
1:05pmJames
no
1:06pmAnnie Snowflake
huh'
1:06pmJames
shes from london
she was on hol too
donut
1:06pmAnnie Snowflake
ohhhhhhh omg omg omg omg can we double date
1:06pmJames
nop
1:06pmAnnie Snowflake
why
1:06pmJames
nt yt neway
1:06pmAnnie Snowflake
why
why
is she real
omg she is sur left hand init
1:07pmJames
nop
1:07pmAnnie Snowflake
can we see a picture
1:08pmJames
yh 1 sec
1:08pmAnnie Snowflake
kl
1:08pmJames
hw am i gna shw u?
1:09pmAnnie Snowflake
erm send it to my email or inbox it or soming
1:11pmJames
princesstitty?
1:13pmAnnie Snowflake
yes
1:13pmJames
sent to ur msn addy
gt it?
1:14pmAnnie Snowflake
jus checkin
1:16pmAnnie Snowflake
ur gay
1:16pmJames
y
1:16pmAnnie Snowflake
fuck off
going out
bye